May 25, 2012

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    Going from nothing to something

    Its been one hell of an interesting trip. I remember being back in the valley just going through the fucking motions, and now I looked up to be several. Which is not my thing. 

    I always play it off that Im not great because thats how I feel. I am no one to look up too, Ive made my mistakes just like everyone else and learned from them. This pertains to photography and life.

    Now I get this treatment from our program chair, “Your a published photographer now. You have to step it up, Ivan.” 

    Yes Im proud of my ONE award, but does it really have to change things. I thrive when no one is expecting anything from me more then when so much is expected of me. I just like everyone else.

    Im working on a personal series called “Rebirth” which came about when all this happened, because for a while I was overwhelmed with all the expectations from other, and trying to live up to them by coming up with concepts I felt would please them. Now I am doing my photography for myself. People ask me to take photos of them all the time, I am not a portrait/fashion photographer. I only make small exceptions, mainly when I feel it will benefit both of us not just the model.

    My photography is me, and when I do things for others, I am no longer being true to myself. From now on I will do only what I feel is a benefit to EVERYONE involved in it.

    I want to go back to when NOTHING was expected from me, when people thought I was a piece of shit, because that’s when I am at my best.

    May 18, 2012

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    As day begins, a once dark and cold room is warmed by the faint light as it seeps through the curtains made to keep it out. A beautifully soft light falls on the body as she awakens.  As she stretches her body, she creates a shadow seen by few. Her elegant movements speak in morning shadows as she prepares to start her day. Lights use is not to illuminate a surface, but to create depth with shadows. 1 of 6 from the series Morning Shadows

    As day begins, a once dark and cold room is warmed by the faint light as it seeps through the curtains made to keep it out.

    A beautifully soft light falls on the body as she awakens.  As she stretches her body, she creates a shadow seen by few.

    Her elegant movements speak in morning shadows as she prepares to start her day.

    Lights use is not to illuminate a surface, but to create depth with shadows.

    1 of 6 from the series Morning Shadows

    May 10, 2012

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    Its been a while since I’ve touched illustrator, I was bored in Web Portfolio class so I figured, why not, fuck it!

    4. May 4, 2012

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    I remember when riding to my school was an actual challenge for me. I was so out of shape! Now I don’t even break a sweat. I am finally feeling comfortable with the bike i have now, It is made just for me, not some store bought fully assembled bike. Biking is so much more enjoyable when you have a bike you have made yourself. 

    I remember when riding to my school was an actual challenge for me. I was so out of shape! Now I don’t even break a sweat. 

    I am finally feeling comfortable with the bike i have now, It is made just for me, not some store bought fully assembled bike. 

    Biking is so much more enjoyable when you have a bike you have made yourself. 

    May 3, 2012

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    Elizabeth James

    Is the coolest person in the galaxy!!!

    I only wish I was as cool as her!